Playing Dungeons and Dragons
In the last several months, me and my friends was crazed into playing a very popular role playing game, Dungeon and Dragons (DnD). Basically, in this game, we are asked to create a character and played those character to the stories that are been created by the Dungeon Master (DM). What makes this game interesting, is that we could make a character and played those character whatever we likes, whatever we want to. I, myself usually played a character called “Bolgradis”, which is a dumb and reckless fighter who often makes dumb action. As a player, bolgradis has a very good principles: “Act first, figure out later”. Bolgradis is always the first to attack another character, eventhough we still don’t know yet which side he belongs to. Bolgradis is the one that went straight eat a mushroom in the dark forest, which later we figure out that those mushroom was poisonous. Bolgradis even banned into several store in the game, because he ever stole a sword while the owner are present in front of him. HAHAHAHA
In the last several months, me and my friends was crazed into playing a very popular role playing game, Dungeon and Dragons (DnD). Basically, in this game, we are asked to create a character and played those character to the stories that are been created by the Dungeon Master (DM). What makes this game interesting, is that we could make a character and played those character whatever we likes, whatever we want to. I, myself usually played a character called “Bolgradis”, which is a dumb and reckless fighter who often makes dumb action. As a player, bolgradis has a very good principles: “Act first, figure out later”. Bolgradis is always the first to attack another character, eventhough we still don’t know yet which side he belongs to. Bolgradis is the one that went straight eat a mushroom in the dark forest, which later we figure out that those mushroom was poisonous. Bolgradis even banned into several store in the game, because he ever stole a sword while the owner are present in front of him. HAHAHAHA
Those reckless character of Bolgradis are often protested from my friends. One thing, the very first thing they do while meeting an NPC is that reminds me to not doing anything before we figure out who is that. I often ignores those commands, making my friend desperately tries to make me fall asleep so I won’t do anything reckless. Eventhough being protested, I guess i will never changed my playing style. While those are looking childish and dumb, I think sometimes that’s how life should be. Act first, figure out later.
Act first, figure out later.
As a child, I grew up reckless, doing things without knowing how. I climbed the tall trees in front of my school, without knowing how to get down. I barked at the neighborhood dogs, without knowing they would chased me after that. I want to go to those same schools with my friend, without knowing it was very hard to survive on those schools. Growing up, I think this is one thing I just wish I doesn’t wanna lose about myself. Act first, then figure it out.
I don’t know why, exactly. Maybe, while navigating through adulthood, those principles are the mindset I need the most. While there are a lot of micro-chances, so many different opportunities, and multiverse and timeline that I don’t want to missed out, I wish that all of those fears I have, just disappears into a thin air. I want to hike those mountains, travel to all those countries, attend those concerts, talks on that sharing session, handle this new exciting project so I need to just close my eyes, just started participating on those things I want to live, without really think through all of those fears I had.
Perhaps, while I slowly growing up, it’s time to believe in myself. Maybe, it’s time to take risks, saying yes, play along all of those things so that I will figure out all of things I don’t know I was making right decision or not, so that I will figure out on things I worry it will work out or not. Maybe, all of those feelings, loved, heartbreak, late-nights, nervous, excited, joy, scared, are the experiences we need to go through, and will be part of a story we tell. Maybe, it’s time to go to all of the adventures we want, and just trust ourself that we will eventually come back from all the problems we had.
Maybe, it’s time to think it simpler. Even though we failed, is there any better way to live?
“How do you want to end this game?” said the DM to my friends. Even though I’m not the one who being asked, deep down I have the answer to those question. “Kan, That’s what I said. Whatever happens, we will figure it out”.
Udah sih gitu aja, bye!
